So its Saturday morning April 7 at 1 o'clock in the morning. I cant sleep. I have got so many things racing around in my mind. Really starting to freak out that we only have 1 week left of the BWLC, 3 more workouts with Dan and we our on our own. Last Friday I did join the gym (GHFC) how many times have I gone ZERO. I am so afraid that when we are done I am going to get back into my lazy couch potato habits. Really that is not an option. I know exercise will keep me on the path to better health.
Another thing I have realized is that I am not a Blogger. Of all the things Dan has wanted us to do this I think has been the hardest. We started the blogg so we can be held accountable during our journey. I feel I have failed in this since I only have few post. Oh well I will get over it.
On that note I guess another reason I cant sleep is knowing that I am pretty sure I did not win this BWLC. Ya ya ya I know what your saying "just from being chosen and loosing 30 pounds your a winner" Right now I am not seeing it that way. I feel like many people were counting on me to win this one. From family, co-workers, clients etc and I feel like I have let them down. I feel like I have done the best that I could with out sacrificing myself and my family. Could I have exercised more? Probably.. Could I have followed the diet plan better? I am sure I could have but overall been extremely good. Over all I am happy with my progress. I did the best I could. So win or "lose" I really do know deep down inside I am a winner. I just hope others see it this way also. And by the way this is not me throwing in the towel. I am still in it to win it. Its not over until the skinniest lady sings.
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